you have to have the courage to let it all go.
i have had a very long sticky road these past few years, hell, let's call it like it is - the past 36 years. from the outside it could look all rosey but, like our lives on social media, there's always something deeper, truer.
i grew up in a very complicated family (didn't we all in some way?) but as a child, i absorbed a lot of those unsupportive patterns and continued to think "it always had to be this way." i called myself names, believed them, hated myself, was embarrassed to live in my body. i didn't trust those around me; i questioned everything; it seemed like everyone was "out to get me."
i didn't want it to feel like that way anymore. but I was so fearful of letting it all go because it was what i knew.
these past few years have been about breaking that cycle. for my children, for the forward of my family, and once and for all, for me. i decided that the history i lived doesn't need to be the future I continue to create. it happened. let's move on. right? i wish! it wasn't that EASY.
over the years i worked with psychologists, analysts, plant medicines, shamans, eastern doctors, invested in good old fashioned friendships and more. but, in the end, i realized i didn't need to talk about it anymore; i had TO MOVE IT. but i had to keep it simple and do it BEAT BY BEAT. as a wise friend once told me, 'poco a poco' - little by little.
and so came 'the class.'
i needed fire, heart and soul to get this story up and out of my DNA. i needed shaking, contraction, sound, release, intention, forgiveness and stillness. and take it beat by beat, breath by breath.
in this world of fitness i have heard way too many things that are pushed into people's psyches that are FEAR based, stemming from one's own fears, egos, and the need to make others live in it with them. "don't do this or you will bulk, don't do that or you will become large, work this way and you will ruin your body!" we aren't all made the same, these "theories" don't apply to us as a whole.
move how you NEED TO.
move so you can FEEL GOOD.
move to CREATE NEW SPACE for YOU TO LIVE IN.
move to wake up, be alive, present, engaged,
UNSTUCK from the past.
move to get out of the EGO - the one that makes youstare at yourself and size up every last centimeter of your body, gripping the mirror with your eyes, criticizing, loving and over dramatizing the things that don't matter.
at the end of the day, if you don't work on the parts of you that no one can see, you can change the shape of your body all you want, but it wont be pretty living inside of it.
close your eyes, go INSIDE. it's NOT OUT THERE.
IT'S IN YOU.
let's move, people.
not in the "right" way, not in the "pretty" way, but in the way that you need to release the fear.let's gather the courage to let it all go. it saved my life, the future of my children, their children, and hopefully a whole lot of others.
let's break it down.